Late Bloomer

I can still remember a fantasy I had when I was young. I was in an ambulance, strapped to a gurney. Arms and legs strapped down, unable to move. Surrounded by three ambulance attendants, all male. And they were touching me, examining me…. I was 7 or 8 years old when I had this fantasy. I didn’t even know what masturbation was. All I knew was it felt good when I rubbed myself down there and thought about those men touching me.

I look back on that, and it’s obvious I was submissive and kinky at a very young age. Even before puberty. And yet I managed to submerge that knowledge. For 40 years, I denied its existence, until one day, I found myself chatting online with a strange man who was telling me about a girl he had fucked. He told me about how he had turned her around, flogged her ass and fucked her doggie style. And I had to drop the phone and go buzz out an orgasm immediately at the thought. “Tell me more about that flogging thing!” I demanded. Ah, the door had been opened…

How I was able to deny such an important aspect of my sexuality for so long is still something of a mystery to me. While my childhood was certainly dysfunctional – alcoholic father, emotionally withdrawn mother – there was no dramatic abuse in my past. No molestation, no physical abuse. It was true, though, that I was a late developer, sexually speaking. I didn’t even date in high school. I lost my virginity in college, had my first orgasm at the hands of a man when I was 25, with my now ex-husband.

He’s not a bad guy, my ex-husband, but he’s very conservative and very vanilla. Not the kind of guy who would have been receptive to kinky sexual fantasies, although I actually did ask once or twice. In case you didn’t guess, his answer was a very short No. End of discussion. You know those women who lose all interest in sex after they have their kids? Yeah, one of them would have been the perfect wife for him.

In any case, that is how I came to be a late blooming submissive slut. I was fortunate enough to find a Sir who is, well, quite experienced in his perversions, and he was happy to train me up. A few short years later, I’m a three holed slut who’s had her asshole plugged, her pussy fisted, and her tits beaten. I’ve sucked strange cock, kneeling on the sticky floor of an adult video store. And there are more adventures to come!